I’ve been realizing that there really only is one problem in the world & one solution: exploitative egoism & transferring separate interest to what’s in the best interest of the Whole, respectively. Through deductive reasoning, we can understand that if the needs of the Whole are sated, so are all of the needs of each individual that comprises the Whole. Thus, when we are not always thinking about ourselves and what we need and want and lack and desire, we start to realize that we aren’t the center of the universe. We’re actually not the center of anything at all.
Everything is transient, everything changes, everything decays and gets destroyed. We only have a certain amount of years in a lifetime to do something significant, but we waste our lives in a self-delusion that’s perpetuated and reinforced by the societies we live in. The most ironic lie of civilization today is that while communities speak of existing to provide for the whole of the group, there is no greater example of how greed and power exist within us all and is encouraged to come out through the inherent structures foundational to our societies. We talk about wanting justice and power, but we should be striving for mercy & beauty. Mercy, love, beauty, charm, kindness, compassion, sweetness, affection… these are impervious to hate, to fear, to violence. When someone isn’t able to think rationally, approaching them emotionally through pathos will always be the best way to get through. Kill ’em with kindness honestly does work. Maybe we don’t always get immediate results, but if we can honestly swallow our pride and not let our ego flare out of control to submit ourselves humbly before the person we have trouble respecting and tolerating because we legitimately disagree with them or dislike them, we almost always will disarm them by catching them off guard. This has happened to me many times with trolls when I stream on Twitch. I just respond politely and compassionately to their antics & they’ll more than not just be surprised. I’ve had a few actually apologize and end up following me asking me why I was so nice to them. I told them, “trolls are people, too.”
It can be exhausting trying to maintain faith, courage, optimism, positivity, strength, energy, and even compassion sometimes in the face of all the shit life consistently throws at us, but I’ve really come to feel that although “life is painful, suffering’s a choice.” Since I’ve CHOSEN to see things differently, I’ve actually noticed a real difference. I actually hate myself and people and life less. I actually believe that things WILL get better. I actually believe that with my newfound convictions, I will be able to get where I wanna go, even if it takes lifetimes haha. The point is to never give up; to have patience & compassion on yourself for being where you are, however far you are from where you want to be. You WILL be there eventually, but not alone.
As much as I dislike the fact that I’m human, I have to recognize that humans are social animals, and as much of an introvert as I am, I do still NEED people to help me right now. I’m not strong enough on my own yet, but that’s okay. It doesn’t make me weak or pathetic, it just makes me young. I’m still learning. Youth isn’t about age of body, it’s about wisdom. Some people gain a lot of wisdom from a young age, some never gain that much their own lives. It’s about experiences we undergo by choosing to put ourselves in situations outside of our comfort zones. Imagine that; intentionally choosing to experience pain and discomfort to a certain degree BECAUSE you know that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. It’s like a vaccine: exposing yourself to difficult situations in small doses will help you build your distress tolerance skills so next time you encounter something you perceive as distressing, you’ll be better equipped to handle it.
What we perceive as negative, disaster, calamity, pain, abuse, etc. these things will ALWAYS come in life. We will ALWAYS encounter stuff that we don’t like, but we have to constantly remind ourselves, so what if we don’t like it? It’s not about US. We are just another cog in the wheel of a huge machine. The world/universe doesn’t exist for us & after we leave these temporary material bodies, the world will carry on as though nothing has changed. This is not a BAD thing. This isn’t something that needs to be lamented after. We can take comfort in the knowledge that as units of consciousness, we are animating and illuminating this material word, we are giving life to the dead matter, not the other way around. When all matter has been obliterated, what is our goal then? What is our desire? When all that is material, all we’ve ever known has been removed, what then should we aspire to/for? The same that can be aspired for/attained right now while alive. A shift in consciousness.
We feel alone, separated and cut off from the Whole, but this is simply misconception. We are physiologically inseparable from the whole on a material level compositionally, so why do we think that on an emotional and spiritual level we are disconnected as well? Because we erect the wall of separate interests, choosing to turn from consciousness of the Whole, to solipsism & nihilism. It’s dangerous and it’s antithetical to the cultivation of love and devotion in one’s heart. Even on a bio-evolutionary level, humans are social animals who NEED one another to thrive and flourish. We CAN survive on our own, but it’s just that: bare needs survivalism. If we want to succeed in our goals and become the best that we can be, we need to work together to accomplish greater feats than can be achieved alone. We CAN transform the world through kindness and preaching by example alone because the most inspiring thing is to see someone who is practicing what they preach and maintaining their faith, strength, courage, and convictions in the face of this exploitative world.
We can choose to let the darkness break us, we can choose to let it cloud our vision and take us over completely, or we can master our darkness. We can take the pain and suffering and nothingness we’ve felt, we’ve stared into, contemplating diving into, and use our pain as fuel to gives us the ability to overcome it. When we have been hurt or we have hurt others, we can choose to learn from this experience or not. It’s not that everything has a silver lining, it’s that everything is GOOD. Again, remove human civilization from the planet and everything is in balance, harmonious. Stuff is born, stuff grows, stuff decays, stuff dies. It’s the natural order of the material universe and it isn’t BAD. If we can stop putting so much importance on this dead matter & start looking for something deeper, longer lasting, more valuable, we can find not just a feeling of inner peace, but start to come into contact with the reservoir of unconditional love.
It’s a practice and it takes a lot of time and dedication to unlearn all of the crap we’ve been force fed. Mastery of oneself is literally the toughest path to walk, but it is also the most rewarding. If we can face the lies we’ve swallowed & created ourselves, if we can accept that it’ll be painful and difficult, but that it’ll all be worth it in the end, we’ve already made it. All we need to do is CHOOSE to want that. Everything else will follow naturally because Sincerity is invincible. ❤
Jax Bayne 